Granting Grace

After nearly thirteen years together sometimes he just works my last nerve!  Last night I was frustrated to no end with my Love so I decided to leave the house to get some air.  I needed to go to Wal-Mart anyway but then I figured since Chick-fil-a was right next to Wal-Mart I deserved a cookies & cream milkshake…heaven on earth!

At the light while waiting to pull out of my subdivision, still fuming, I was going over the events of the past few minutes.  Even though I was in the car by myself and no one would have known, I was silently praying to God to help control my anger as to not start cursing that man out verbally or in the quiet corners of my mind.  

Sitting my anger at that light I clearly heard God say, “grant him grace.”  Ugh!!! God has been doing that a lot lately.  Just jumping into my thoughts, reminding me that in order to complete my circle not only do I have speak my faith, I also have to act my faith.

Grace is one of those words we hear so often that we tend to brush it aside when we are frustrated or angry.  In general, we all know what grace means but in all things Christ-like we have a choice in whether or not we use it.

Like I said, I know generally what grace means but I decided to look it up anyway so that I could make sure it was really grace God wanted me to extend in this current situation with my Love. (Won’t we try to find a way not to do what God tells us to do?  The flesh is weak!)

By definition, grace is the unmerited divine assistance given to humans for their regeneration or sanctification.

In reading the definition, it was the word unmerited that stood out the most so, I looked it up too.

Unmerited – not adequately earned or deserved.

I meditated over that word for quite sometime before I started this post.  No one and I mean no one, not even I, deserve grace.  If I were totally honest I know without a doubt that I sometimes say, do, think and act in ways that anger or frustrate God yet, even though I did absolutely nothing to earn or deserve it, I EXPECT God to grant me grace.  To forgive me, bless me and love me no matter what.  So who am I to not give to others what God so lovingly and freely gives to me each and every moment of my life?

I had the most enlightening drive to Wal-Mart! I also enjoyed my milkshake but then went home with a better attitude, helped my son with an online exam, hugged my Love and peacefully went to sleep.

Learning how to listen so that I can listen to learn.

 

Chapter Four – Transcendence

God is Able by Priscilla Shirer

Transcendence means the quality or state of being transcendent.

Transcendent means going beyond the limits of ordinary experience, :far better or greater than what is usual.  “…exceeding abundantly beyond…”

When I began reading chapter four it reminded me of the time I began to study the bible with a group of friends back in 2001.  My goal was to reaffirm my faith and trust in God and to be baptized again.  I had been baptized as a child but truly studying the bible for myself and understanding how to apply God’s word for my life as an adult was a game changer.  After my baptism, my life did change for the better.  I felt more at peace, I had more clarity, more structure and discipline.  For about five years I was on this amazing high.

I don’t know about you but I can always look back over my life and remember the exact thing or situation that changed the path I was on.  My amazing high started to take some hits.  I struggled with situations and people in my life that began to negatively impact me.  All those old familiar feelings began to set in; anger, frustration, doubt, a lack of self-worth.  And so…there I was searching for that amazing high again.  I figured if I found it once…I could find it again.  I don’t think I ever doubted that God could help me to find it again, I think I lost sight of God’s ability to do it.

Transcendence…exceeding abundantly beyond

Chapter four helped me to realize that I was not seeing the bigger picture.  I am praying but not opening my mind to God’s ability to move beyond what I ask or desire.  God has the ability to transcend beyond my beyond.  Just because I’m not seeing these out of the ordinary things happening in my daily life right now doesn’t mean that they won’t.  It doesn’t mean that God can’t.  He may simply be choosing to go beyond my expectation and at a time that is best for me to receive it.  I really enjoyed chapter four.  It opened my eyes to the true greatness of God and His ability to love us beyond what we could ever think up or imagine. Amazing…

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